I learned a really important lesson recently, which was during my birthday and involves several gentlemen and my distinguished ability to play bumper cars with my entire body and the world when I really decide to get down. And by down, I do mean weebles wobble and, unlike what you've been told, they do fall down, especially when this particular weeble decides to drink Rumpleminze and wear sparkly fantastic four inch birthday heels.
It was hilarious for all sorts of reasons but mainly reminded me that there was this ITCH I had to scratch, one I'd been trying to ignore for weeks. I gave in and it all went fine, especially once I really looked at what was going on. My roommate pointed out that the whole birthday week was a little nuts... I kind of single-handedly broke the world, honestly. No, I dunno. Everyone was a little crazy, and there was a wonderful and hilarious story in which my very awesome best friend ended up trying to stop me from wrapping myself around one of the gentleman like I was a starfish and his face was a clam and she accidentally broke our front window. Yeah. That happened.
But this really illuminated a lot of things I've had a difficult time working out, one of which is the difference between being attracted to someone and wanting a real relationship with someone.
This seems like something really obvious, but you have to remember, I am oftentimes a high-level functioning moron. Things written in letters four feet high and shoved under my nose sometimes aren't enough.
There's this guy I exclusively refer to as The Hottest Hipster of All Time, who I am not actually interested in or attracted to, but I like to talk to. There's guy I met at St. Patrick's Day. There's the Trivia Guy who stuff didn't work out with. And there's The Ex About Whom This Blog Was Intended to Be. We'll find a better nickname soon, I'm sure.
I've made a lot of situations WAY worse by being unaware of the difference between those two things. And it's not just me. I've seen a couple people I love way hard fall into this same trap lately.
It's nice to know this. Seriously. It has made SO many parts of my life make so much more sense and finally got this nagging itch to go away... I think for good, which is awesome.
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